Circles…

I’ve noticed my blogs tend to be the same lately, well usually the same things keep running through my head is probably why. You know, this last fight was kind of do or die for me. They all are of course, but I’d had a string of bad luck, inside and out of the ring. I’m not one to take set backs likely. They eat away at me, aggravate me to the point of no return. I only thank God, I have all these good people around me. Good training partners, coaches, friends, family, everyone. When the fight is at hand, it’s only you and your opponent, but leading up to that point, you have a lot of support and I have the very best.

Every fight, you’re never completely sure if you going to heaven or hell. I’m always confident, always train hard, always give my all, but you just never know.

The day of my match was like usual for me, for the most part. Listened to a lot of music, but stayed relaxed, I usually don’t try to get amped right before, no wasted energy. When I wrestled in high school, I think that was a big mistake I made early on. I would get so amped, but if the match wasn’t soon after that, it was just wasted energy. When it’s time to warm up, I do it and am completely focused on the task at hand. This last time I felt really good. Mentally I think I was in the very best shape. Not worried about the result, just completely focused. I told myself, no matter what, my opponent would fight the very best me, and he did. It was heaven that day, I don’t know about tomorrow, but regardless I go there with a smile.

Another thing I did that day was watch an episode of Spartacus. Yes, I’m a fan and am really sorry about the main actor. But I saw this one episode in particular. There’s an episode where they send Spartcus to fight in the pits, he’s lost his honor at that point, and his master is just hoping to turn a small profit on him before he dies fighting there. It is not a place people return from. It is a hopeless situation, but he keeps winning, because there is something he must do before he dies, something too important and he survives. I watched that one in particular, because that’s where I saw myself. Struck down by fate or something, but not ready to die, too many important reasons to continue….I have a world of fight left in me, and my best is yet to come, I promise you that.

Heaven or hell, whichever awaits, I’ll meet it with a smile. I’ll meet it with no wimper, but a hollar the likes of which you’ve never seen. I could be satisfied with that. That would be my peace and that’s what I’ll do.

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